Through the battle of drug addiction I've have only discovered that the battle doesn't end there. The real battle field is in our minds. This blog is made to share my story and hopefully give hope and inspiration to anyone at war with themselves.
"Defeat the enemy within and the enemy outside can do us no harm."
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Is life happening to you, or FOR you?
Tony Robbins asks, "What if life doesn't happen to you, it happens for you?" It's a hard pill to swallow. Especially if one is still struggling in active destructive addiction. One might argue, "How is this supposed to be "for" me?" I guess that is what his intention is. To get us to answer that question.
I'd never had thought it was a good thing to have lived through what happened, FOR me. Especially in-the-moment. I mean, it's kind of ridiculous to think that the time I was crawling through the mud, under a house in Florida, trying to listen into the secret corridors of Andre's, that, "This is a good thing."
It took time. Namely growth in time, which has allowed me the opportunity to look back and see that these things, now, can be called good. It also has allowed me to see that, everything is designed to work out specifically for our improvement.
I played football in high school. I loved it. I enjoyed the practices just as much as the games. Only, I don't remember leaving practice filled with the excitement or despair I felt from the games. I went to practice and it was my job to give my best effort every play. It was my duty to listen to the coaches and apply their teachings. It was my responsibility to set a good example for the new members of the team.
Coaching is totally different though. Coaches design practice to win games. Coaches motivate individuals according to their individual needs and challenge each unique player enough for them to develop confidence and competence. They disciplined us if we weren't performing up to our capabilities. Every year our seasons were designed to make us better players and to perform at our new best at each game.
I believe life is the same way. We have a Cosmic Coach, who I believe is God, who designs our practices to have us ready to perform our best when it's game time.
If we aren't aware of this we suffer. Could you imagine putting your child in football practice but he has no idea why he keeps getting tackled and yelled at and no clue what he is doing? He'd be miserable!
If we ignore practice and focus on the game, if we are talented we may win some. However, we will lose many more. We might focus more on how we do instead of the team. Without knowledge of the Coach, we focus more on the opponent.
Should we focus on our Coach and have faith in his design, work hard in practice knowing there is a big game coming up, our skills develop much faster. We notice there are many more people on our team other than us. When we finish the game, we thank the other team and bring our focus right back to our Coach.
We must be patient and understanding because it isn't about who we are today. It's about who we become tomorrow. Out of this new understanding of life, we are gifted with continuous education, motivation, and growth. We become aware of all the players on our team. Our momentary sufferings, they are for a purpose.
This is what we mean when we say we believe, "Everything in life is designed specifically, for our improvement." The BA2L is real, Be Addicted to Life. Eric (Airek)
I remember the day and place I first heard this scripture. An evangelist from Japan had come to church and used it to paint his point. "Those who lead many to righteousness will shine like stars forever." There is something attractive about, “…shine like stars forever.”
I like to reflect on my life and tell about a time that visually tells a story for quotes like this. However, for me, I wasn’t led by just one person to better living, more so by many.
If I must give one person the credit it would be without a doubt Jesus, which in itself is a beautiful mystery. However, the purpose of this isn’t to convert anyone to Christianity, only to share my reality.
There were many people along the way of my waywardness who have lead and guided to me in the direction of the different chapters of my life. Starting with my parents.
My mom worked diligently to bring as many positive influences as she could into the globe of my childhood. Richard Bigham was a soft-spoken and rugged firefigh…
“Babe, is it hot in here? I think I’m starting to sweat.” I said on our way to the wedding.
“Stop thinking about the race, You’ve been looking at that map and getting yourself all worked up.” My girlfriend replied from the driver's seat.
Days before the race I started feeling the tight stomach and the itchy heart. It’s been a long offseason and today was the beginning. It certainly didn’t disappoint.
We pulled up to the Jewish Community Center in Columbus, Ohio where Memorial Day Mayhem is located. This is the first of five amazing races in the Ohio OCR Grand Slam. The course is fast and technical. In its 3.1 miles, it hosts 40 obstacles set up in groups. There is a more explosive section with burpees, short monkey bars. and tire flips. A trail run section. Water run, balance section and strength section with undercarriage, log carry, tire pull and rope climb, just to name a few.
As far as spectating goes, there is a great place inside to get out of the sun if need be, a kids course …
While I was in transition to my new life this was written. It is the beginning of my journey to where I am today.
Days come then go, evening then morning, a new day has come. The heaven at dawn is over, now I will live in the light until the heaven at dusk arrives. The time of twilight truly is surreal. Majestic, magnificent, cosmic and enlightening, to say the least. Two heavens, one light, one dark. We enjoy both of them. We may be blind in the darkness, even blind in the light. Too much darkness, not enough light or too much light, not enough darkness, all benefit our cosmic, our interstellar existence. To enjoy life on all levels. When we gain an appreciation for all creation, we will be perfect. Enjoy your ignorance with no regrets. Enjoy your wisdom with no shame. Live to please and pleasure ourselves, we are selfish. Then we no longer receive pleasure from, from these things. The pleasures of old, we feel a new existence. It is Christ who came to earth. We are no…